Design, Life, and a Bit of Fever

So, this website was supposed to be a portfolio for my graphic design and animation work. Well… it was. Then I realized—I’m paying for this site, I can write whatever I want! 🤣 So now, I’m using it to figure out how to design not just visuals, but also my life.

Will anyone actually read this? Probably not. But hey, I felt like writing.

Lately, I’ve been exploring my mind—not just as a tool, but as a whole other world with invisible limits I’ve never noticed before. I can see and understand my body (to some extent), but what about the mind? That question led me to a course called Mind Mastering, and more importantly, to my mentor. Being his student is an honor. He once told me:

"Have you ever questioned everything you see? Or did you just accept it because someone taught you to?"

Basically—are your eyes open, or are you sleepwalking through life?

I won’t go into all the details now, but this question has led me here.

Breaking Out of the Duality Trap

The system we live in tells us everything must be split into good vs. bad, right vs. wrong, yin vs. yang.

But my mind? It’s trapped in this duality.

And if I want to break free, I have to start questioning things.

Then, Life Happened—Or Should I Say, a Fever Did?

For the past few weeks, my wife has been sick. A brutal cough, fever, the whole deal. But yesterday, things got even worse. She’s pregnant with our daughter, Doğa, so we couldn’t just throw meds at the problem. We barely slept. I kept checking her fever all night. When morning finally came, we found out it was influenza. So, meds it was.

Now, here’s the crazy part. As I sat next to her, watching her struggle, I literally thought to myself, “I wish I could take this from her.”

And… well.

Be careful what you wish for. 🤣

By morning, I was the one coughing, running a fever, and writing this with my new best friends: headache, chills, and weakness.

But Here’s Where It Gets Interesting

I told myself: "Being sick isn’t good or bad. It just… is."

If I let my mind run wild, I could start spiraling: Why did this happen? I feel awful. I have work to do. Everything is on hold!

But then I thought—why should I choose that narrative?

Instead of drowning in frustration, why not put my own filter on reality?

Yeah, my headache.

Yeah, I feel weak and dizzy.

Yeah, I hate seeing my wife unwell.

But do any of these things actually stop me from enjoying life?

🚨 This was the moment. The moment I realized that my body, my circumstances, and even time itself don’t control me. I can step above it all, see it as it is, and still find joy.

And that’s why I wanted to share this.

A small, random thought.

On a website no one knows about.

With no expectation, just for the fun of it.

Let’s see where this message in a bottle off to. 🌊🔥